Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart. Hebrews 12:1-3
The words below I wrote 6 years ago during my brain tumor journey and they have been on my heart during this season of grief. Perhaps you’re in a season where you’ve been fighting just to survive the day, the disease, or the heartache. If so, find comfort from your Father in heaven. Then remember to keep running with your eyes fixed on Jesus. He will give you the strength you need to run your race for His glory!
(previous post from Dec. 31, 2012)
Lord, you carried me through the darkest nights. You held me when I couldn’t stand on my own. Without you, I would not have survived the fight.
Yet now I hear you say, “It’s time to walk, my child. It’s time to run.”
I don’t want to, Lord.
I want to stay safely tucked in your arms. I want to feel the security of your warm embrace. I want to hear the soft whisper of your loving voice clearly and feel the peace of resting in your arms. I want you to hold me, forever.
“Walk, my child. Run,” you say.
Lord, I am scared.
“Do not be afraid, my child. I know its scary, but it is your turn to fight. You will have the strength and security you need with each step. I will guide you and protect you. I will give you peace.”
But Lord, what will the world say about me?
“Child, you are mine. My love for you is greater than any thing of this world, and you are my child. That is what you are! Hold tight to this truth, my love. And nothing this world says about you will hurt you. Find your confidence in the love I have for you.”
“Walk, my child. Run.”
But how, Lord?
“Place one foot in front of the other, trusting me. One step at a time, I will be with you. Keep your eyes on me, and I will show you the way.”
But Lord, why?
“You still have work to do. It is not time for you and me to stay together forever. That will come. I promise you. But now I am with you in Spirit, and you must walk. You can run. You can fight to make my name known in this world.”
“Walk, my child. Run.”
Lord, help me.
I will walk. I will run.
I want to fight for you.
